Vague

Less than 20 minutes to go and I am supposed to be celebrating..we are… But unfortunately…it’s the opposite…..

A night to remember…the only night I wish I could go back to right now and make things right.. But I can’t.. Nobody can… The only thing that I can do now is face the fact that it’s already in the past.. I just have to live the day, and try to forget things that hurt.. I only want to be happy.. I just wanna be happy.. But no matter how I try, it’s still the same…

Why can’t u understand?…

I just hope that one day… I’ll wake up with this thing inside healed..gone..

i really am not feeling well ryt now.. i’m doing fine.. ayt.. but not.. gets? f u dnt, naah… dnt ask.. coz i dnt undrstand either.. let me jst sing to you a song.. (jst imagine that i’m ryt bsyd u, singing that song to you.. here it goes..

    i’m afraid to fly.. and i dnt know why.. i’m jealous of the people who are not        afraid to fly..    it’s jst that i recall.. back when i was small.. someone promised that they’d catch me.. but then they’d let me fall..

    and now i’m fallin.. fallin fast again…. why do i always take a fall, when I fall in love?

i’m not actually afraid of fallin.. but it’s jst this question that bugs me…

    AM I REALLY NOT WORTH IT? Y AREN’T THEY PROUD OF ME?

i know i’m not perfect.. and i know that i’m difficult to understand at times… but why is that so?? i may not be gorgeously and glamorously perfect.. (hindi ako celebrity! at alam ko un!) but i give all the love that i can… (mahirap ba ‘kong mahalin?)

oh, well.. anyway… ngkita kmi ni Madel knina.. my ever dearest cousin.. how I miss the days when we were younger.. those days when the love that we just needed was the love of our parents and the rest of our family.. just that and nothing more…

well, again… haha.. just as a dear friend told me, it’s all part of growing up..

til next time… xoxo

my friends are kind of getting tired of my stories… even if they keep on listenin’ to me, i know they are.. it’s just that i keep on thinking of things that they think aren’t worthy of being thought.. but what can i do when all these things matter a lot to me? simple things.. simple acts.. simple thoughts.. such things often hurt me.. unconsciously, and perhaps unintentionally, they do.. i am emotional.. i am sensitive.. yes, i am… my closest friends for sure already know this… how i wish they are with me right now… how i wish they can be with me in times when i can’t take things anymore.. when i am about to cry.. but actually, when they’re around, i feel numb.. it’s not that i don’t feel anything.. but the rain doesn’t pour.. i dunno if i should be writing all of these stuff and post a blog here right now.. but there’s one big thing that keeps on buggin’ me a lot… and.. it’s just that i can’t make somebody do or stop doin’ things. sometimes, i even get tired of myself thinking of these things. it’s a feeling that you think u want to surrender and stop.. but u’re heart’s still beating and it tells u not to.. wanna know what these things are??!? love somebody!!!!! and u’ll understand me.

Avisala…hehe..intro plng, obvious na one of the encantadiks na ko..wla akong masabi and actually, posting a blog is not my plan..im just curious of how to do it..hehe..parang inosente noh?!ac2ly…perhaps no1 wud ever care 2 rid dis..or maybe only 1 or 2 if ever na mron..well…here it goes……….

As I remember, nung high school graduation namin wayback April 2, 2004, hndi ako umiyak..ewan,basta…eh,hindi ako naiyak eh..ung iba mejo aging emotional..I was actually surprised kc may pagkamababaw ang aking tears..lalo nat sabi nga nila,e, pnkamasaya ang high school life..and 2think na un na ang last day na magkakasama kami ng clsm8s and friends ko, pati na rin ng beloved teachers(wooo!!sipsip ba?hehehe)sa school premises ng DLA Molino as high school students..but the emotion didn’t sink in..pero yesterday, as we’re having our choir practice at the CM office of my school, which is Adamson University, naalala ko ung grad..HOW?well..dahilk sa isang song entitled Thank You Once Again..graduation song 2 ng October batch of graduates…i dunno wat courses..ngapla, sa wednesday na kanta namen sa PICC..hehe..sayang kc d naman ninyo mapapanood or mapapakiknggan ung song namen..anyway, hirs the lyrics na naaalala ko..

We hardly share a glance and greet and know each other.And now the time is up, I feel like braeaking up..It’s this time that almost always makes me cry, before we say goodbye, I wanna let u know I love you. CHORUS: Thank you playing my music, thank u 4 singing my song, thank u 4sharing a moment, coz’ wd u i feel i rly blong.thank u 4 kiping me compny, thank u 4 being my friend. and if our paths shud cross sumwer sumwen, I’d like 2 sing ds song agen.

bsta..yan lng naaalala ko eh..pag namemorize ko, bka ipost ko nlng ulet..cge poh..4dis moment, i wanna say bye muna..and til next tym!!!

ngapla..SIR BELBEN’s doin’ fine in da states..kachat ko xa knina lng..wyl having his breakfast…miss na daw nya tau..un….

Always remember..Life is good..and happy..only if you choose to live it happily.. and in order 2live a happy life, always put God first and above all..

God bless!!!!